Post by Zametrius "Nova" Castelios on Dec 21, 2020 7:48:40 GMT -5
Zametrius Nova Castelios
THE SUPERNOVA POKEMON
| AGE | GENDER | ALLEGIANCE | OCCUPATION |
| EIGHTEEN | MALE | NEUTRAL | Fire-Performer / BL dancer |
APPEARANCE
Appearance wise, Zametrius is a burnt monster to some, a face to be pitied to others and a gaze to be avoided by most. His face and arms aren't even the extent of the burns that scar his body, the marred skin running to not only his shoulders, down his arms, ears, jaw, chin, under his eyes. They also line his torso, across his stomach, down his back, on his legs. Zam knows very well what he looks like at face value. But boy does it add to his fire performance. Do they stare at him? Do they stare at the fire? Yes to both?
With raven black hair and striking blue eyes, Zametrius is 5'7 and 146 lbs, a lithe figure. Flexibility was mostly maintained via different techniques that were used to help him not only keep flexibility but hone his focus. Complex yoga poses, break dancing and other activities helped him recover and despite his issues with temperature regulation due to the damage done to his skin, he enjoys them greatly.
His clothing varies, but mostly, for a lack of giving a shit, he wears an oversized white tank, a ragged black trench, sagging jeans with a belt barely keeping them the rest of the way up. He switches out skate shoes and boots whenever he damn feels like it. Covering his body are silver styled tattoos in the shape of staples along all of his scarring that mimic holding his burnt flesh to what healthy skin he has left. He slowly got these shortly after he got his 3 nose piercings and 8 earrings along the cuffs of his ears as he earned his keep by dancing.
With raven black hair and striking blue eyes, Zametrius is 5'7 and 146 lbs, a lithe figure. Flexibility was mostly maintained via different techniques that were used to help him not only keep flexibility but hone his focus. Complex yoga poses, break dancing and other activities helped him recover and despite his issues with temperature regulation due to the damage done to his skin, he enjoys them greatly.
His clothing varies, but mostly, for a lack of giving a shit, he wears an oversized white tank, a ragged black trench, sagging jeans with a belt barely keeping them the rest of the way up. He switches out skate shoes and boots whenever he damn feels like it. Covering his body are silver styled tattoos in the shape of staples along all of his scarring that mimic holding his burnt flesh to what healthy skin he has left. He slowly got these shortly after he got his 3 nose piercings and 8 earrings along the cuffs of his ears as he earned his keep by dancing.
PERSONALITY
| POSITIVE - Intelligent - Independent - Imaginative - Energetic - Determined NEGATIVE - Self-destructive - Shy - Brat - Emotions way too big to control when brought out - Loses train of thought quickly | Much more intelligent than first impression lets on, Zam's appearances are incredibly conflicting in more ways than one. Despite dressing like a bum, Zametrius aced his advanced mathematics and chemistry classes, especially once his medicine was put in better order by the insurance, the orphanage mother and his psychiatrist. Without his medicine though, it can seem he can't stay focused on anything long enough, and before that when he was younger, it seemed very much the true case. Independent is an odd trait of Zametrius should you not know him, but with how he's lived most of his life, he's become very independent, knowing damn well to never expect the help of those around him. Being alone for as long as he has taught him that, among other negative things, but he can and will easily take care of himself. Zam is imaginative in not only the way he memorizes formulas and equations, but also in his dances and performances. So much so that they offered him to maybe try choreography, but instead, he chose to stick to dancing. While he's told what to do for black light performances, he makes his own fire performances and does his own thing when he's home. Energetic is one way you could describe Zam-zam. Naturally teeming with different types of energy, it was difficult to learn how to reel them in, and even entirely impossible feeling before he started receiving proper treatment to help focus so he could better expend his teeming energy. Don't expect to see this side of Zametrius outright though, he's shy and his energy in public when not performing typically shows in ticks and other subtle movements. Determined meaning that he will and can smash through anything that gets in his way. Having nearly died several times already, Zam is a tough nut to crack and when he gets a goal in sight, if he remembers it, he will smash his way to it one way or another.. as long as it's not related to another person or potential rejection. Speaking of rejection, we come to the self-destructive part of his tendencies, a very difficult trait to control as they struggle to understand and unpack his emotions. Feeling almost completely unable to control his self destructive tendency to sabotage any relationship with people early. If it's not business related and he's afraid of it becoming personal, he will immediately push himself away and mentally destroy himself to help avoid any potential rejection. He feels what he does to himself to avoid friendships and lovers is much better than the potential rejection. Shy in the form that this just developed from a lack of emotional stimulation growing up so he doesn't openly talk to people or make eye contact often, mostly cause he doesn't know how. He prefers to stay in the back of the conversations and not open up to other people. His therapist thinks his shy tendencies are also affected by his self destructive tendency to keep him away from forming meaningful relationships. If he's not on stage, he's a quiet, fidgeting mess to himself. Very few people who have gotten to know Zametrius have had the honor of seeing him when he's not hiding inside of his shy little shell. To the public, they see a shy, fidgeting burnt up ball that's clueless as to how to approach them. To his therapist, psychiatrist, boss and orphanage mother, they've seen this bratty little tinker bell at work. His energy changes when he isn't locking himself away. "Nova's" genuine energy shows through, he gets a bigger attitude, and his mood swings show through more. He also gets sassier. A fiery little ball of 'fun' if you like to think of him like that when the walls come down. Emotions way too big to control when brought out are one of Zametrius's biggest hurdles in his mental health. It's easy to change his mood and when it does change, they're bigger than he can control and, as he's been told apparently, hurt much more than they do for normal people. While they try to figure out how to work on coping with the emotions, he just has to deal with how easy it is to make him go from one extreme to the next (if prompted) so fast it could give you whiplash. Loses train of thought quickly, even on his medicine, he can still struggle with his thought processes. Sometimes while speaking or even writing, he has to stop what he's doing, re-read it one-hundred times and then try to carry on with what he was doing. But ya know, after he scrolls through memes, doodles some crap on the corner of the page, or gets up to do god knows what for what reason??? (Mental Health clarifications in the spoiler) // Off notes: What he has exactly is PTSD tied to claustrophobic settings, ADHD, BPD |
BACKGROUND
Growing up in poverty, with a rickety roof over his head in the ghettos of Hyo, Zam never had a good stroke of luck in his life. Things never went his way, his dad was typically an ass and his mother was quiet towards it. He doesn't remember much of that anyways. He was never around for long and his strokes of luck didn't start up until the lack of luck nearly killed him.
Zametrius has a relatively short home life, being when he was eight, the family home was caught in a vicious crossfire. He remembers vaguely his mother and father talking about how the state of the world was getting out of hand, he didn't understand it but somewhere in the recesses of his mind, he remembers there being flares in tempers between some people that called themselves Plasma... badges. He remembers something shiny, and the people that fought against them. The rest is blurry because it was when he was eight that the ghetto in shambles that he lived in caught fire. Their home and several others burned down, and went up so fast that by time help had gotten to them, Zam was trapped under something, smoke closing in on him and nothing but the sound of collapsing structure all around him.
Little does he know, it was fire-fighters and their Pokemon getting to him to pull him from the rubble and fire. Everything was so blurry. Little Zametrius almost didn't make it on the way to the burn unit at St. Jasper's, and he certainly almost didn't make the burns themselves several times. During what lucid times he had during the start of his recovery, he simply remembers a searing pain so bright it was if someone placed a sun inside of him, molten fire pouring through his veins.
As his recovery went on and Zametrius became more and more aware of what was going on. He was in a sterile room, the smell of sterility all too well known to him now, and even more well known to him was the ringing sound of silence and loneliness. The TV that was left on for him only served as a background noise that he truly couldn't focus on. All that occupied his mind as he sat alone was fire, no matter how much he tried to focus on something else, the fire came back. Even as he was moved to Lesca to receive better, more specialized care under a pediatrician willing to take on his case, he didn't think about much else.
During his recovery in Lesca, he experienced two fits of sepsis. One starting out very mild, caught early and young, but the next wave rolling in with a vengeance. He survived the Sepsis but at the cost of his immune system strength. Now with burns that were increasingly difficult to graft due to the extent of the damage, he was even more prone to infection with his newly compromised immune system. He was almost deemed a lost cause, but somehow, the burns closed over time, and he survived the worst part of the physical damage.
All that time alone helped brew his hyper fixation with fire into an obsession with fire. The few things to actually come out of the fire being the lasting damage to his body in the form of scars from a Houndoom, doomed to bring him pain for the rest of his life and PTSD brought on from claustrophobia. Fire, he is fine with, but when the rooms feel like they're closing in on him, he loses control.
He was assigned to an orphanage, which, thankfully, was able to wipe out his debt to the hospital, as well as keep him in touch with the mental help he so needed. He was already falling behind kids his age in school, and his mental health wasn't helping. Zametrius grew up struggling, but with the help of a therapist that started him on yoga and tai-chi, as well as getting him to see a psychiatrist to go further into what was happening in his brain. The Yoga would help him regain flexibility slowly over time, as well as help teach him focus. It'd also help him tap into a more creative side of himself.
As he grew up, they figured more and more out, and Zametrius's life stayed as 'normal' as a severe burn victim with rejection issues and all the other issues he harbored could have. He was smart, he really was, but it wasn't for him. When he aged out of the orphanage, he was sent out into the world with what little possessions he had, but also with a hatred for Plasma and the Resistance that so violently fought against them. There would be no going to one or the other for him.
Instead, he stayed on Lesca Island, where he was able to get a job as a fire performer, and find some form of housing while he was there, thankfully already being known at least by being an orphan that was moved there when he was cleared from the hospital. Thankfully, he also didn't have to switch therapists or primary care providers. There in Lesca, Zametrius would begin to bloom, but with each bloom on the branch, there would always be a bloom that didn't quite fit.
Zametrius has a relatively short home life, being when he was eight, the family home was caught in a vicious crossfire. He remembers vaguely his mother and father talking about how the state of the world was getting out of hand, he didn't understand it but somewhere in the recesses of his mind, he remembers there being flares in tempers between some people that called themselves Plasma... badges. He remembers something shiny, and the people that fought against them. The rest is blurry because it was when he was eight that the ghetto in shambles that he lived in caught fire. Their home and several others burned down, and went up so fast that by time help had gotten to them, Zam was trapped under something, smoke closing in on him and nothing but the sound of collapsing structure all around him.
Little does he know, it was fire-fighters and their Pokemon getting to him to pull him from the rubble and fire. Everything was so blurry. Little Zametrius almost didn't make it on the way to the burn unit at St. Jasper's, and he certainly almost didn't make the burns themselves several times. During what lucid times he had during the start of his recovery, he simply remembers a searing pain so bright it was if someone placed a sun inside of him, molten fire pouring through his veins.
As his recovery went on and Zametrius became more and more aware of what was going on. He was in a sterile room, the smell of sterility all too well known to him now, and even more well known to him was the ringing sound of silence and loneliness. The TV that was left on for him only served as a background noise that he truly couldn't focus on. All that occupied his mind as he sat alone was fire, no matter how much he tried to focus on something else, the fire came back. Even as he was moved to Lesca to receive better, more specialized care under a pediatrician willing to take on his case, he didn't think about much else.
During his recovery in Lesca, he experienced two fits of sepsis. One starting out very mild, caught early and young, but the next wave rolling in with a vengeance. He survived the Sepsis but at the cost of his immune system strength. Now with burns that were increasingly difficult to graft due to the extent of the damage, he was even more prone to infection with his newly compromised immune system. He was almost deemed a lost cause, but somehow, the burns closed over time, and he survived the worst part of the physical damage.
All that time alone helped brew his hyper fixation with fire into an obsession with fire. The few things to actually come out of the fire being the lasting damage to his body in the form of scars from a Houndoom, doomed to bring him pain for the rest of his life and PTSD brought on from claustrophobia. Fire, he is fine with, but when the rooms feel like they're closing in on him, he loses control.
He was assigned to an orphanage, which, thankfully, was able to wipe out his debt to the hospital, as well as keep him in touch with the mental help he so needed. He was already falling behind kids his age in school, and his mental health wasn't helping. Zametrius grew up struggling, but with the help of a therapist that started him on yoga and tai-chi, as well as getting him to see a psychiatrist to go further into what was happening in his brain. The Yoga would help him regain flexibility slowly over time, as well as help teach him focus. It'd also help him tap into a more creative side of himself.
As he grew up, they figured more and more out, and Zametrius's life stayed as 'normal' as a severe burn victim with rejection issues and all the other issues he harbored could have. He was smart, he really was, but it wasn't for him. When he aged out of the orphanage, he was sent out into the world with what little possessions he had, but also with a hatred for Plasma and the Resistance that so violently fought against them. There would be no going to one or the other for him.
Instead, he stayed on Lesca Island, where he was able to get a job as a fire performer, and find some form of housing while he was there, thankfully already being known at least by being an orphan that was moved there when he was cleared from the hospital. Thankfully, he also didn't have to switch therapists or primary care providers. There in Lesca, Zametrius would begin to bloom, but with each bloom on the branch, there would always be a bloom that didn't quite fit.
MISCELLANEOUS
| OOC NAME | FACECLAIM |
| Daxton | [b]My Hero Academia[/b] - Dabi, [i]Zametrius Castelios[/i] |
Pokeball x5
Potion x2
Lava Cookie x1